For the love of my life—
Glassy-eyed, I drove. Everything was stagnant. Everything was static. Everything was molding and melting—deteriorating – falling from my needy grasp and hungry heart. I drove. I tucked my past in a small chasm beneath my feet and stomped the earth on top of it to make sure it was secure. The air was bitter that night. The flakes of snow were melting on the warm streetlights and the sidewalks glistened – this simple image hugged my body with an unfamiliar comfort; a comfort that drew my tepid, lifeless body towards you. I did not know you but I enveloped a tiny morsel of trust in the palm of my hand and took it with me. I inhaled deeply. I drove to you.
You. With your large, almond eyes and sultry mouth. You and your delicate limbs…your hands moving as you spoke. Both of us sitting—penetrated by the stillness of the world that surrounded us. The lovely pulchritude of your presence felt right and rested beneath my chin, holding my tired head up. Your voice lulled me. Your glance intoxicated me. My olfactory welcomed your pheromones into my lungs without hesitance. Your body made mine limp. Your body made mine flush. Your body made mine wet. Your body made my body crave your body.
As you spoke, I noticed every building in the distance begin to dissipate. All environs faded. All sound muted. I noticed bits and pieces of my past life smack the ground only to get engulfed by wet snow. This was new. This was change. I stripped myself raw and felt my entire anatomy being pulled towards you like a compass or an electrostatic force. I thirsted for your touch – an ethereal yearning that I had a strong appetite for because it was never given to me in the past. I let go of everything and allowed myself to give in to my thirst only to be quenched by your kiss and you were mine.
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And the drunken night when my hips pressed against yours over and over and over to the sounds of me “putting in work.” Undulating my hips—My mind was hazy. The haze was illuminated by my longing for you and the certain love I felt with one mere glance. I decided to bury myself into the corner of your pupils and bathe in the warmth of your coffee irises. Make you mine. I let myself be yours. I gave my entire self to you. Flesh and thoughts. Secrets and sinews. Past and present.
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Your mouth dips in and out of every concavity and indention of my fleshy tissues. I am alive and you are focused. I am awake and you are fixated. You playfully lap up every one of my thoughts. I watch them all travel down your mouth and into your esophagus only to be deeply entrenched into your heart. I carve your initials into my limb and trace it with inert fingers constantly. A habit I am willing to keep.
Endlessly my love is all yours.